Finally!

I would just like to take a quick break from life to write something about today that has been different from other days.  I know I talk about Lucy allllll the time and it gets old to everyone out there.  But today I am especially thankful for a few things.
I went to church today for the first time since Lucy Lu has been born, and I had a really good experience.  There is something about being in the presence of God (spiritually) while holding my little angel who is so perfect and fresh from Heaven that humbles a mother.  I was thinking about my life and how it has been good and fun and full of blessings.  But there is no other experience, except for motherhood, that I have enjoyed more.  My heart was so full of love today for little Lucy and I just feel the need to express some of it- whether it was bearing my testimony in front of a whole congregation, or blogging about it right now.  I can't seem to contain this feeling today for some strange reason.  So as I sit here and stare at my baby girl, I just want to express my gratitude for this perfect present I have been given.  I really felt my value on this earth today.

My whole life I knew without a shadow of a doubt that all I wanted to be when I grew up was a mom.  I never hesitated with that as my answer when people would say "what do you want to be when you grow up?"  But until that awesome moment arrived, I had NO IDEA how truly wonderful the title of "Mom" was/is.  And I felt my worth today more than any other day.  Like I said, I have talked about loving Lucy many times, but today it hit me that being her mom REALLY is my career in life.  I guess it's a little hard to explain.  I grew up wondering why I didn't excel at tennis, or art, or music, etc.  I was passionate about all of these things, but I never felt like I was the best at them. I waited 24 years to find that one thing that I am the best at.  I realized it today:  I am the best a being a mom.  It brings me more happiness and comfort than any other single thing in this world.  I was sent to earth to be a mother.  And I am so thankful that that is my "calling."  It fills my heart with SO much joy and love.

So I couldn't pass up the opportunity to write about my feelings today.  I didn't want to forget this day, among others, and let this moment pass me by.  Maybe other moms can relate to this "ah ha" moment; I'm not sure.  But for me, it was a wonderful feeling to hold my precious baby and feel her sweet spirit and know, finally, that I was sent here FOR her- to love and protect one of God's children.  How amazing and humbling that is!