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Sunday, December 30, 2012

Sugar and Spice and Everything Nice

Well, it's time!  Time for me to park my buns in front of the computer and (finally- now that my mom is here and can babysit while I type) write about the best day of my life....(equal to the day Lucy was born). Piper Everly Gilley made her grand entrance into this world.  And let me tell you, she is the sweetest, most beautiful little thing to grace our family during the Christmas Season.  I could not have ever asked for a more perfect Christmas gift.  Shawn and I have said many thanks to Heavenly Father for bringing her into this world safe and sound.  She really is the Sugar and the Everything Nice part of our lives.  Her sister brings the Spice, but Piper is the sweet stuff (and I LOVE both the Sugar and the Spice equally!).

Here are the details of her birth:
I was scheduled for an induction on Tuesday, December 18th. I could NOT wait because my due date was the 23rd and I wanted to be sure that I would have my baby as far away from Christmas as possible.  So my doctor fit me in on the 18th, but the only bummer was that the only time we could get started was at 5 AM.  It was a very early morning for us!  I was super excited, and Shawn was super tired.  The night before, we dropped Lucy off at her best buddy's house (Adeline) to spend the night.  It was a sad goodbye for me because it was my last night that she was my only little one and I couldn't spend those final hours with her.  We said prayer together as a family and I started crying in the middle of it as I thought about the last 19 wonderful months of my life revolving around this sweet little blonde hair, blue eyed beauty rocking to sleep in Shawn's arms.   I whispered I loved her and headed out the door.  It's hard to explain the feeling in my heart at that moment, because at the same time I was ecstatic to know I would be having Lucy's sister in just a few short hours.

I was so excited, in fact, that I only got 2 hours of sleep that night- I was tossing and turning and thinking all night long.  When my alarm went off at 3:45 AM, I was already awake and hopped out of bed, eager to get the day started.  We left our house at 4:45 AM and made the quiet drive to the hospital.  I was checked in quickly and hooked up to all the monitors before 6 AM even rolled around.  The pitocin was administered at 6:30 and this is when the minutes began to draaaaag along.  Shawn was so tired he couldn't even open his eyes.  I don't understand how men can get "SO exhausted" while their wives are in labor.  With both babies he was able to take naps while I sat there in labor.  Lucky guy....
 
Anyway, at 8:45 my doctor came in (FINALLY) to break my water (it's always such a weird feeling when they do that).  After she was finished, they upped my pitocin and the contractions began....Oh boy did they start fast.  One minute I'm telling my nurse, "yes, I am starting to feel them a little bit."  The next I am begging for my epidural and shaking as they hit me faster and harder than ever.  This is when Shawn gets up and starts the rubbing of my feet and telling me I'm doing a great job.  Good thing, cause if a man is napping during THIS part of labor, I don't think he'd be alive to witness the birth of his child.  Haha!  So the anesthesiologist comes in to administer the epidural, and he misses the first time and hits a blood vessel (sorry for you squeamish readers) and. it. kills.  Oh man it hurts!  But he can't take the needle out of my spine until the next contraction so I am feeling this horribly painful pinch in my spine for 90 LONG seconds.  I wanted to die.  He tries again a few minutes later and it goes in correctly, but Piper is positioned in a spot where she is blocking the medicine from coming through and I can't feel it's effects.  I was MISERABLE.  To make a long story short, eventually after all the repositioning they did and doubling my epidural medicine (I have no clue what it's called) my body finally responded and I started feeling that amazing, pain relieving numbness take over.  Ahhh, I love epidurals :)

(**Shawn says I need to add in that he did some push ups before the bad contractions started so that he could "wake up" and get his adrenaline pumping to offer his support.  I want to add that I had Christmas music playing the WHOLE time during labor because I wanted my baby born to the happiest music on earth, and December is the only month you can get away with that.**)

SO-back to my story... the clock was continually ticking and I was getting impatient.  I wanted my baby!  So I begged the nurse to re-check me to see when I could start pushing.  She assured me that it wasn't time but agreed to check anyway.  Well- guess who was right? ME! Because she said, "Oh my goodness, you're at a 9!  You can start pushing as soon as we call your doctor in."  Hallelujah!  So we wait a little bit and medical people start hustling in and out of my room to set it everything up.  It's getting exciting now!  Shawn and I keep smiling ear to ear knowing we would meet our little one soon!  My nurse came back in and said "Ok, the doctor is out in the hall so lets do a practice push."  She says go and I start pushing until she says "never mind! Stop! Your baby is RIGHT THERE and she is about to come out if you continue."  To which I asked "right where?  What do you mean she's about to come out?  I expected to push for a long time!"  But nope, Piper was ready.  Dr. Hennesy walks into the room at that point, still putting on her gloves, and they tell me to push because I feel so much pressure and I want her out!  Three pushes later, the loudest, sweetest cry in the whole wide world is heard and someone yells out an Apgar score, another yells out the time (12:15 pm), Christmas music fills the background, and an angel is placed on my chest and ready for her cord to be cut by her Daddy.  It all happened sooo fast but thinking back on it I can remember every single perfect detail.  As my doctor handed me this baby, Shawn and I said "SHE LOOKS JUST LIKE LUCY!"  Hahaha and boy, oh boy, does she.  She is her big sister's twin!  It is incredible.  The only difference is that Lucy came out with brown hair and Piper came out blonde.  I also think she will have brown eyes- and she is beautiful.

Piper Everly came into our lives on December 18th, 2012 at 12:15 pm.  She weighed 7lbs 8oz and was 20 1/2 inches long.  She is absolutely perfect.

I won't go into detail about my hospital stay because every story is the same- chatty nurses, no sleep, needles poking at you non stop, etc.  But I do want to mention the ONE memory I have that means so much to me.  Shawn (sadly) had to leave for the night to be with Lucy so it was just Piper and me together in the hospital alone.  On the 19th, we woke up to a Winter Wonderland outside.  The world looked beautiful!  As we were up on the 3rd floor of the hospital, we could look down and watch as big snowflakes swirled around.  My hospital room was very warm and Piper was undressed and under my gown so we were skin to skin.  I turned on my Christmas music again and closed my eyes and smelled my precious newborn baby.  Her scent is just heart warming.  It was one of those moments I will never forget.  Me and my sweet new angel cuddling alone in the warmth of my room while the world outside turned white...  There couldn't have been a more perfect start to our new life together.

I now know what every mom with more than one baby talks about- how much your heart opens up to the new baby and still has just as much love for the one you already have.  My heart wants to burst when I watch Lucy love her sister.  The first moment they met, Lucy was in love with Piper.  She was so excited and couldn't stop staring at her and wanting to hold her and touch her and kiss her.  It's the best gift a Mother can ask for- having a Christmas baby and watching her and her beautiful older sister sharing those first tender moments together.  It is priceless. 
We came home from the hospital 24 hours later and settled in as a new family of 4.  Piper is now 12 days old and we have definitley had our ups and downs already, but I wouldn't trade it for ANYTHING.  Lucy loves her sister, that's for sure, but she has her moments of jealousy and neediness from her parents.  As I feared, she has shed a few tears as she realizes that it's not all about her anymore and that Mommy has to divide my time for now.  It breaks my heart when she cries out for me and I can't hold her because I'm nursing Piper.  But my mom reminded me that in the long run, I gave Lucy the best gift in the world- a baby sister who someday will become her best friend.  She is adjusting and getting better each day.  She hugs and kisses her sister daily and I couldn't be happier.  I am SO blessed!!

Now that I have written a novel, I will shortly add that we had a great Christmas.  Shawn stayed up with Santa until 4 AM setting up Lucy's new trampoline.  It was a long night for him, but a perfect day for us.  I made a traditional Chrstimas Eve dinner with enough appetizers to feed an army and I cherished the holiday with my family.  I recieved my best present from Santa and had the best Christmas ever.  Lucy had SO much fun opening her gifts this year and playing with all her new toys.  She is one spoiled little munchkin! She was in heaven.

Piper is SUCH a sweet baby and super mellow and sleeps all day.  She is such a good sleeper and always so content.  She can sleep through Lucy yelling in her face in excitement and she just gives you a feeling of peace when you hold her.  I don't know if it's possible to feel more pure joy in my heart than I feel now, but if it is, I welcome the future with open arms.

Piper Everly, Mommy loves you more than ALL the leaves on ALL the trees.
Thank you for joining our family.  You are SO LOVED and you have blessed Daddy and I with the true gift of happiness.  You are amazingly beautiful and have such a sweet spirit, I don't know how I got so lucky.  You and Lucy are my everythings and I couldn't love either one of you more.  Never, ever forget that.
Thank you for being you.
Love,
Mommy



Tuesday, December 11, 2012

A Family of 3

I figured I would blog one last time before my life turns upside down once again.  I will make this short, but I just have some thoughts and feelings about our upcoming arrival (Piper) and for some reason my fingers are itching to try to get something tangible written about it all.  I am nervous and excited and hopeful and sad and happy and tired and energetic and ecstatic and relieved and jittery and calm and, and.....well, just SO many emotions are swirling around me right now!  I don't know how to express them all or how to make sense of any of them.  But I bet all the mom's reading this "get me" completely.

I have been holding Lucy a little more this week, and treasuring our alone time.  She knows something big is coming.  She is clingier and needier than ever.  She will not let me out of her site for a second and if I go around the corner, she bursts out into tears- real tears, not her dramatic fake cry.  After her naps this week, I have been getting her out of bed and we sit in her rocking chair and cuddle and quietly sing nursery rhymes for about 30 minutes everyday while I scratch her back and we give each other kisses.  And without fail, I cry every day at this time.  My "alone" time with her ends in a few days. As excited as I am for Piper, it breaks my heart at the same time.  Like I said, I can't really make sense of it all.  How do you feel two extreme emotions at opposite ends of the spectrum all at once?  A Mother's heart is a mystery and can hold onto every emotion and feeling possible.  That is a gift and a curse of Motherhood.

I know I have said this before, but I just don't want Lucy to feel left out.  I don't want her to feel that she comes "second" now.  I am SO ready to have another baby and re-live all those wonders that comes with new angels, but if Lucy is sad about any of it, will I be sad too?  This is what I'm nervous for.  I know I think about it too much.  I shouldn't dwell on this.  Everyone has siblings. "She will be fine."  That's what everyone says, and I know she will be.  It's just that she is my EVERYTHING at this point in my life, and it's hard to imagine being able to have 2 little "everything's" here with enough love to go around.

But please don't mistake my hesitation for anything other than what it is.  I am SO ecstatic to have Piper join our family.  We will go from the comfort of being a family of 3, to being a crazy family of 4.  I couldn't be happier!  I am giving Lucy a sister (the one thing I have hoped for my whole life- 2 little girls!) and I will have a sweet baby girl in my arms once again.  My heart wants to explode with happiness when I think about bringing Piper down to our family!  I feel blessed and overjoyed and the anticipation of seeing her face is nearly killing me!  Once again- so full of joy and nerves all at once!

Anyway, I said I would make this short, and of course I didn't.  But like I said, there is just SO MUCH to feel!  So much to write, so much to consider, so much to process.  But I know  that "every little thing is gonna be alright" :)

We can't wait to add to our brood and have two little girls in pigtails and curls running around.  There is nothing sweeter than a newborn baby.

Thank you Heavenly Father.  Please let my sibling-to-be-paranoia  go away and let Lucy feel so much love that she doesn't even notice the divide from today and the 18th (when her sister comes).

Just a few more days as a family of 3.....


 
One of my favorites.  Pure Joy on her face :)
I have a feeling the best is yet to come! 
Love you all!
 

Sunday, November 18, 2012

Happy 1/2 Birthday Babs!

*Sometimes we call Lucy "Babs" since her middle name is Barbara...in case you were wondering about this blog title ;-)

Ok, normally we don't celebrate half birthdays in our house, but Lucy is officially 18 months old today and that seems like a mentionable milestone in her little life.  Plus, I think Piper is going to have half birthdays so that she has a stand-out day in the middle of each year since her real birthday might always be over-shadowed by Christmas.

Anyway, I thought I'd give a list of the 18 things I love most about our Lucy Lu!

1. I LOVE the way she shrieks EVERY SINGLE TIME Shawn walks in the door after work.  She gets so so sooooo excited and runs to him.  She adores her Daddy.  It really melts my heart.  Is there anything more tender than your 2 favorite people in the world showing such pure happiness at just the sight of one another?  I don't think so....

2.  I love how her hair is always hanging over her eyes and touches her top lip when it's not pinned back and she doesn't even seem to mind that it blocks her view.  It's stinkin' cute.  It's her bed head look, and for some reason that is one of my all-time favorite looks of hers.

3.  I love how every single morning we snuggle in my bed while she has her morning milk and we watch Elmo.  She has to have our faces touching and her arms are usually around my neck.... (I have to hold her sippy for her while she drinks because of this, but it's OK because her squeezes are irresistible).

4.  I love her obsession with purses and lip-gloss and lotion.

5.  I love how she holds her dolls in her arms and says "ohhhh" every time she picks one up.  I love how she tries to swaddle them with dishtowels from the kitchen if she can't find a blanket and she "feeds" them their bottles :)  She also takes great care in strapping her babies in their mini strollers and pushing them all around.

 
6.  I love how she puts her hands in the air and says "All done!" after her meals in a sweet high pitched voice and rubs her belly to say "Please" whenever she wants something (that is the sign language way of saying please).
7.  I love her laugh.  It's loud, hilarious, and sweet all at once.

8.  I love how she fake cries when we say "No" to her.  She throws her head back and squints her eyes shut but peeks out of them every few seconds to make sure we are still watching her.

9.  I love how she can carry on a long conversation with an imaginary person on all cell phones.  And every remote control in the house is also a cell phone to her.

10.  I love her silky soft skin and her chunky round buns :)
 11.  I love how she dances to music.  She spins and "jumps" around and laughs.  She is so cute I can't even stand it!

12.  I love how she yells at me and gets so exasperated when she doesn't get her way.  Although I'm supposed to punish her when she talks back to me, sometimes her fits make me laugh and I have to turn away from her to hide my smile.

13.  I love how feisty she is.  Yes, there are days when she is just too much for me (you stay-at-home-Mom's know exactly what I mean).  Those are the days that as soon as Shawn walks in the door after work I shout "SHE IS ALL YOURS! I'M DONE!"  But for the most part, she is hilarious and entertaining and I know someday I'll look back fondly on her attitude and laugh.  After all, everyone says she got it from me.....oops!

14.  I love how she can go from crying to laughing in a split second but then crying again because she is mad that she gave in and laughed.

15.  I love how when we say "it's time to say prayer" she folds her little hands together.  This one really melts me.

16.  I love how excited slides and swings make her!  The innocence of a child is the sweetest thing in all of the world.
17.  I love her kisses.  All day she generously gives me loud kisses with or without me asking first.  Also her hugs.  She might be a spit-fire, but she has never been one to not show her affection.  She loves hugs and kisses as much as we do.

18.  I love how the other day I told her there was a baby in my belly and she lifted up my shirt and stared at my stomach in confusion.  She kept looking at my belly from all angles searching for this baby I was talking about.  It was pretty cute :)

I love Lucy's fascination with books, brushing her teeth, coloring, painting, using rags to help me clean (aka- smearing dirt around) and pointing to eyes, noses, and mouths.  I love how she is so eager to learn and imitates us all the time.  Everything is new and amusing to her and she loves to learn and is excited to try new things.  She loves the Alphabet song and Twinkle Twinkle Little Star.  I love how she grabs my hands and says "pway," meaning "play" and that means she wants to do Pat-a-Cake with me.  Her laugh and happiness is so infectious.  She is a spunky girl who offers so much zest to life.  She is oh-so-funny and loves to make us laugh.  She is good at sharing her toys with friends.  In fact, she LOVES her friends and has a lot of them! Luckily, she also loves her Mom and Dad just as much.  She always wants us around.  She sings all day and babbles in her own language and holds our hands just because she wants to.  I truly fall more in love with this blonde haired, blue eyed beauty every single day.  There is nothing in the world I love more than being her Mom.

 
Happy half Birthday, Babs.  Daddy and I love you more than ALL the leaves on ALL the trees.  Thank you for bringing so much pure joy to our lives.